the crazy’s coming back
Right from tomorrow I am re-assuming control over my life
I like making lists sooooo
1. No bunning except if I’ve been drinking heavily in which case I shall whip out my MOTHERFUCKIN’ LIPSTICK BONG and annihilate the hangover with sweet green medicine
2. No more shit fucking food, gonna try and avoid obsessive calorie counting but I do need to lose weight so only nice healthy nutritious shit shall be consumed even if this proves costly (funds that will have been used for draw can be redirected to this)
3. No getting absolutely trashed / staying out super late / having people over before an early start at colly bar in emergency situations eg birthdays, Burgh Heath, similar
4. EMBRACE THE LONELINESS. LEARN TO LOVE TO BE ALONE. WE ARE ALL BORN ALONE LIVE ALONE AND DIE ALONE SO IT’S TIME TO FUCKING GET USED TO IT.
These rules apply until exams are over (bar the food one which can apply until winter rolls round again and I have to gain weight for warmth like some sort of mountain-dwelling marsupial, oh and the last one is applicable to the rest of my life) so if you see me breaking any of them a sucker punch would be muchly appreciated ok thanks!!!!
we are all alone, born alone, die alone, and we shall all someday look back on our lives and see that, in spite of our company, we were alone the whole way. i do not say lonely - at least, not all the time - but essentially, and finally, alone. this is what makes your self-respect so important, and i don’t see how you can respect yourself if you must look in the hearts and minds of others for your happiness.